There you have it, the year is just begun or I have already to make a few decisions who will have an impact of the rest of the year and far behind.

The first one I have to take isn’t that difficult, it’s something I want to do for a long time, getting myself specialist in hospice care.

Yes helping people when they are dying, not only the dying people but also their family. I made my mind up for that one, I’m going to Hasselt in February and follow the curses for that. It does mean that I have to let go my examines for  architect designer this year and do them next year. Well I think it’s worth it.

An other thing is that one of my fellow musicians told me to get myself specialist in Latin / rhythm and blues / jazz music, it does mean hart work for that either. He told me that I will do a great job in it, and it will only make me richer. He’s easy talking about that, you have to know al kinds of rhythms when you are a drummer, but to special’s myself in one of the most difficult rhythms there is in this world I don’t know. It doesn’t mean I will give it a shot, but specializing is going a bit to far I’ll think.

One other worry about my mind is that I have an appointment with my specialist on February the third, well I hope he can be gentle with me. I’ll know that I would have an other Bronchoscopy, if things are oké inside, but you will never know with that fellow inside me. He’s making a profit right now that I’m tired, had loose more wait and try to attack me again. I’m glad I have my medicines to take and that I’m on oxygen during the night. Rattling again .

There is some good news too, Zazou isn’t mad at me any more and eating again, Fleurtje; well she is back from her short holiday; man I was glad to see her back. I really missed her, and it was only for two day’s. Well some have and some don’t.

Very often I get comment of other people who are telling me she is very direct and honest, but that’s the way she is and I don’t want to change that, I love her the way she is, beautiful, one with nature, and well just herself. She can’t cheat, isn’t cruel or mean and normally she can go with more then one person thru a door. I’ll think that’s what bothering a lot of people, her honestly, the pureness of a child. Oh man now I’m writing such negative things and I ain’t negative at all.

Don’t worry about nothing just tried to write down for the very first time what was on my mind.